The Retarded RANK RACE!!

A concerned friend came to me the other day and asked, "Hey, Aren't you blogging anymore?!"
I smiled at her and told her firmly, "I don't blog just for the sake of blogging. Each and everything i write has a strong inspiration behind it. Without any inspiration at all, whatever I write will fall flat on its face!!" She seemed visibly satisfied with my answer, but made me uneasy with a comment that initially bewildered me- " What about your rank on that blogger site!? You'd better keep blogging or else it'll affect your rank!"

Well, there you go! I have to thank my enlightened friend! She has inspired me to get back to my keypad with that absurd comment. This obsession with 'RANK" is not just hers alone. Millions of Indians live with this obsession and wallow in it! Its always 'My Rank is better than hers, or Why couldn't i score a better rank than him?' Gosh! I wonder if somewhere down the line, we've compromised our individuality or more importantly, our happiness in the name of 'RANK'.

This confounded word has doggedly chased me throughout my school tenure, and continues to pester me at the age of 20! Its worse for people like me, who don't give a rat's arse as to how much we score, or where we stand in class, because our confidence in ourselves is unshakable. We don't need a RANK to justify our talent.

Yet, it breaks my heart to see young people over concerned about being high rankers. To me, it seems like a colossal waste of time. In the quest to be high rankers, they have forgotten that it is 'knowledge' and ' work experience' that can set you a class apart. You can only gain knowledge, if you allow your mind to be child like- full of adventure and innocent inquisitiveness! And that can only happen, if your mind is not saddled with the baggage of marks, rank, under confidence, or even overconfidence (Too much of anything is detrimental)!

The word 'rank' itself saps your creativity. Its my personal experience that when I complete my assignments diligently without letting the negativity of the entire world to weigh upon my heart, I feel content and self satisfied. After having done my bit of my work, all i want to do is go back to my bed and relax my tired muscles. I don't understand, how a person who is sufficiently busy in life, and has several priorities to attend to, can tax their mind over who's getting ahead in the 'rat race' and who's been left behind!

When i speak heatedly about this with Papa, he explains to me patiently, " There have to be certain parameters to judge a student. So, ranking students fits well into the education system, because you get judged on the basis of your work. It is for your own good. "

I would've believed him, if we had  been receiving education from the most professional college of the millennium, where sycophancy and pandering to a teacher's whim, is not what is going to get you a better rank than others. Granted, that all teachers are not biased and have generally the student's best interests at heart, but it is first and foremost important for you to be happy with your work! The marks you get are secondary. If you cringe from your work, and yet rack your head over where you stand in class, you are a nincompoop!

I am certainly blessed with parents, who inquire about my marks only to ascertain whether I have passed. It's not that i have set my standards low or I am undeserving of high marks. I just don't bother about them, and nor do my parents. They used to be elated, when I used to top my exams back in high school, and I'm sure they feel a twinge of disappointment, when they hear of my stagnant progress on the rank scale in college, but they never judge or harass me. My hard work and dedication in everything that i do; from the most exciting project to the most mundane task, does not go unnoticed by them. And their pride and belief in my caliber never ceases to dwindle. When it gets too much I cozy up to mamma and ask her tearfully, "Are you unhappy with me!?" In response, she holds me close to her chest in a tight embrace, and says, "You are my Shona mey (dearest girl)! Don't be hard on yourself." Those words are like an elixir to me- the fact that someone understands you and gives you back your lost confidence, is what you need when you let this horrid word 'rank' affect you.

Contrary to this, I have seen lots of friends, driven crazy by their parents, to be toppers! For what joy, may I ask? Only to prove to your relative, that their daughter or son is less intelligent than yours? Is this what society has come to? Recently, when our mid-term marks were out, once of my classmates, got so affected by her score that she ruined the fabric she was working on. Anxiety was stamped on her face, and her mood for the week, at least, was somber and aloof.

Lets not pretend that every high ranker, achieves paramount success in life. Renowned individuals have been successful around the world for their revolutionary ideas and the drive to create building blocks for the future. So many names have gone down in the record- Rajnikanth, Abdul Kalam, Marc Zucherberg, to name a few. The list is endless. If all they had to do in life, was to frame their grades on a wall, I'm certain they would not have earned the respect and admiration of millions. They dreamed big, and they had the courage to make it happen; they lived their respective journeys beautifully, through the highs and lows of life.

I would hope to see my country, look beyond the rat race, and analyse life for what it really is- A colour palette! Each colour signifies some or the other phase in our life, and indicates that life is multi hued. No single color makes up your personality- all the colors on the palette make you distinctive as an individual, and each color is special; from the brightest to the darkest. Similarly, look at the several aspects of your life, and look back on all your achievements. You would soon realize that the journey to reach your goal, was far more meaningful and inspiring than the rank that was awarded to you. Learn to fall in love with life once again, before it's too late and you lose your spark! Maybe, watching Three Idiots again would help? :)

We the Women!!!!

Men are certainly uncomplicated.. And not to mention, predictable. Maybe that's why its so easy for some women to make them dance to their tunes. Men (at my age, at least) are not looking for commitment. So they set their standards accordingly- she should be a sex bomb; good boobs, nice legs, a full mouth; anything that can fire their sexual desires. But they do not take into consideration a very important asset; that sets us poles apart from them- our Brains... Because all our plans, all our desires, all ours motives are all there! In the head! Unfortunately, some ignorant men would still like to believe that a woman is extremely emotional, and all her decisions are masterminded by the heart. The fact, that we have a fully functional brain, is of little or no interest to them. Now, most of the times, a lustful, sex driven man would overlook this very important asset and enjoy the physical aspect of a relationship, until one day, he realizes that he has fallen in love with this bombshell... (or so he thinks!) The bombshell, on the other hand, is completely casual about him, and drops him like a rock once she realizes that she can't handle a man harboring feelings of love for her.. Suddenly, even the sex is not as satisfying as it used to be.. So, only one solution can be worked out- A walk out!!! She walks out on the man and moves onto victim no. 2!

In the case above, I'm referring to a particular woman prototype- the type of girl, who is extremely confident about her sex appeal, and uses it to her advantage. Don't get me wrong! I don't have anything against this prototype. I, in fact, grudgingly admire her. The fact that she is sexy and manipulative is not what i envy- But it is that trait in her, which makes it so easy for her to turn down a man who is in "love" with her, is what makes me respect her. Earlier, it was a man's prerogative to break a woman's heart with callous ease; why should men be offended today, when they are at the receiving end of a woman's indifference?? Especially, when their sole basis for choosing a partner was just sexual attraction? I mean, stop complaining that a woman broke your heart! You let yourself get tricked into a heartbreak! Why do you have movies like "pyaar ka punchnama" today?? To warn you against this prototype! And then these very men try to insinuate, that women lack brain power! How hypocritical!

Prototype no 2 is the one i belong to. We have the sex appeal, we have the brains and the wit to drive a man crazy out of his mind. BUT, being temperamental and eccentric, we turn the sexy side only when we WANT to. We would judge a man, ascertain first whether he is NOT a male chauvinist pig, and only then enter into a healthy conversation. We also, don't have any qualms about being rude to the opposite sex if they behave like pompous brats. It is this prototype that men usually avoid. We may or may not be physically attractive, but a sharp tongue and mind is what makes our prototype unconventional (To men). We are not shy of expressing our views before anyone, and enter a charged debate without turning so much as an eyelash. Yet, we are the faithful kind, IF in a relationship, and believe in total commitment. Total commitment, translates into marriage, so we don't really hold too much stock with frivolous 'boyfriend- girlfriend' relationships. In short, we are much too mature for our age, and it is exactly this that men are afraid of! A woman in control of herself,  and an intelligent woman at that, is the last thing they'd want! They would rather forge temporary alliances with Prototype 1. and have their asses kicked!

There are several emerging prototypes within women- A recent sex survey by  the Times of India reveals, that slowly but surely, the Indian woman is taking pride in her assertiveness and emerging as a powerful force to reckon with. Her autonomy and openness to discuss sex is an indicator of progressive times, at least where women are concerned!

So Mr Prude, wake up to the Modern woman, and respect the fact that we can use our brains as effectively as our hearts! Irrespective of our prototype. ;)   






 

Soul Synergy!!

I believe that uniqueness of a person lies in the goodness of his soul... Confused? Maybe it’s an abrupt way to start a deep introspection into something that is given so less importance even by the dictionary. It says that the soul “is an immaterial part of a person, the actuating cause of an individual life.” Pretty accurate, some would say. Others would say that it is that entity which leaves the bodies of the departed to unite with God. I don’t wholeheartedly agree with both viewpoints. The dictionary definition is rather impersonal and practical; who is to judge whether the soul is ‘immaterial’? Who is to know what the soul wants? Secondly, a soul was born inside of us, when we were brought into the world by the creator, and will stay with us till we breathe our last. So why should the soul only be associated with the departed?

To answer the above questions as honestly as possible, let us first understand why the soul is an integral part of our being. It is true, that without a soul stirring inside us we would be bereft of emotions- unable to love, unable to feel hurt and humiliation, unable to feel anger or sorrow. We would be no better than cold tombstones; cast in a curse of lifelessness and ignorant of the luxury of feeling the glorious sun beaming down on us in the warm summers, and the cold breeze stinging our cheeks in the snowy winters. It is because of this ‘soul’ that we are engulfed by a multitude of emotions every day. It is the ‘soul’ that blows life into our inanimate bodies and stays with us through the highs and lows of life.

A person’s action speaks volumes about their character. Good deeds and bad deeds make a person’s life, for man has to live with the eternal conflict of choosing the right path between the two. Our lives our full of trials and tribulations, but a person with strength of character and soul cannot break into pieces in the face of adversities. We just have to look back on the lives of our freedom fighters- so many of them were tortured and brutalized when the British forces rose to vanquish them- despite the atrocities they were made to face, the British couldn't crush their spirit. They were defiant till the very end, and so many of them died brave deaths in the name of freedom. Today we remember them fondly, because somewhere we do realize that it takes a lot of will power and courage to sacrifice all for a noble cause. It was the soul residing in their bodies that made them especial and unique. Their bodies were beaten and bruised, but their souls were emboldened in the face of brutality.

The cause of negative emotions and ill feeling in people is also largely connected with the soul.  A deprived upbringing, a life of poverty and degradation compel a person to resort to wrong means- Hunger and poverty can drive them to a point of insanity where doing the wrong thing becomes a compulsion. How can such a person feed his soul? He has seen such appalling suffering and injustice in life,that his soul withers inside him, and words like ‘faith’ and ‘hope’ are wiped out from his very existence. He obviously does not believe in good deeds, as fate has been cruel to him. And yet his soul needs love. Love is, in fact, his only hope for redemption.

The all powerful soul can make you do great things- whether you would rather choose to perform good or bad deeds, is dependent on how you want to live life. It’s important to know such things about ourselves because as individuals, each of us is special and each of us has something valuable to give to the world. In present times we see cowardice, corruption, moral degradation sullying our society in general, and our beliefs in good values have started to dwindle. Our own experiences embitter us and the realities of life start blurring before our eyes. Those surrounded with such negativity should look within themselves for the answer- An honest and forthright person can never lose himself and his ideals- even in the most catastrophic times!  

On the festival of lights, remember to light the fire within YOU- that fire, which can illuminate your life as well as the lives of others! Spread joy, happiness, love and mercy, and unburden that soul!! Let your soul know true freedom! 

A very happy to Diwali to all you beautiful people and your families!! J Have a Blast, WITHOUT crackers!! Cheers! 

A love like Platinum...

Love.. It's a wonderful word. But its interpretation is always different, depending on the context. For instance, an idiotically romantic teenage girl would picture first love to be something straight out of a Yash Raj film- a flamboyant 'Raj'; chasing her in lush, yellow fields, and serenading her with sweet melodies. For someone else, love is an all consuming need- The neglected housewife, who had once married a man crazily in love with her, now has to hang on to the last shreds of love to save her marriage, hoping.. Hoping that maybe one day, he will fall in love with her, again. Like the old times.

 And me? You may ask what it means to me, but i doubt you'd be satisfied with what i have to offer. I have been single all these years, and I've never been happier! At least i dont get into petty fights with my partner over why he winked at some random girl in my presence, or why he forgot to text me 'I love you' before going to bed. Trust me! I've been around girls who prefer treating their boyfriends like watchdogs rather than human beings, and i feel compelled to say that if love is all about behaving like an attention hog,  I'm not really up to it!

But, like any other girl, however inexperienced i may be in this field, i do wish to be married and 'feel' love. When i discover that i'm in love, I would not want to scream out from the rooftops that the impossible happened, but would rather cherish it in my heart, like a well kept secret only understood by that special person - This is how i imagine my Platinum day of love to be-

We were married 6 months back. Arranged marriages bring with them a sense of reserve in both individuals and the openness to explore a life of togetherness, may not come as readily as it would to a couple already in love. Rihaan and I were complete strangers to each other- even when we sat together through the wedding rituals, neither of us had any conception of how this marriage is going to change our lives.

I still remember, how acutely uncomfortable i was on the wedding night. I did not want a stranger to touch me- so what if we were man and wife in front of the rest of the world!? He was still a stranger to me. As it turned out, I needn't have bothered at all. Before even making an attempt to lift the ghunghat off my head, he said very abruptly, "I have to be honest with you- I'm already in love with someone else. And will be, for the rest of my life." Apparently, he was forced into this marriage by his parents as they would not let him marry a girl of his choice. Whatever the reason, I had been pulled into an awkward situation, wherein I was doomed to be the wife of a man whose affections i could never win. Not wanting to embitter things between us, I decided to be brave and put forward the most diplomatic truce i could think of at the time- " Let's be friends."

From that point onward, we were inseparable friends! We laughed together, cried together, chatted together, fought together and spent six beautiful months under the same roof in our sweet little world. We had become indispensable to each other- He would complain about his co workers and bosses to me, and i would listen to him indulgently and offer suitable advise. We had gotten so close to each other, that no one, not a soul could've guessed how complicated things actually were. We even had our parents fooled about our 'platonic' relationship. But there are some facets about life you cannot choose to ignore, however persistent you may be. As time flew, I realized grudgingly that a feeling of discontent had begun to rise in me. A feeling i had tried to ignore had finally come to the surface and had begun to eat into my conscience. I was falling in love with my husband. And a marriage of pretense was not was not working out well for me. Rihaan was quick to notice the change; "Whats wrong? You're not being yourself." He had an angry frown on his face when i chose not to answer. Maybe i needed some time to figure out things before i spoke to him at length about the future- about him and me. My heart twisted when i thought of the girl he was in love with. Long time back he had shown me a photo of his love- she was quite beautiful. I wondered if they were in touch. The suspense was too much for me and i made up my mind to have a word with him. The only trouble was- how?

I was giggling. I shuffled my feet uncomfortably and looked at him shyly. Rihaan was leaning against the wall, his arms folded, and a sympathetic look on his face- he thought I had gone bonkers! I had made him stand there for an interminable period, hoping that i would be able to say those three words, which would sum everything up and end this nonsense! But all i could do was giggle nervously. Then when i sensed that he was losing patience, i tried to pull myself together and muttered under my breath- 'I love you'. I did not look at him immediately out of shyness, but when i did look at him, the goofy smile that was playing around my mouth vanished. Rihaan's expression was stone, and he couldn't quite meet my eyes. He said to me in a heavy voice, "I'm sorry," and walked past me, leaving me in a state of shock and anguish. I had had enough. I packed my bags, and decided to leave for my mother's place immediately. I was not prepared to be in love with a man who didn't need a wife. Not bothering to inform him, in the middle of the night, i walked out of the house ,bag and baggage intact, and caught a cab.

It had been ten days at my mothers', and i had not received any news of him. He didn't call and i didn't bother to get in touch. It hurt me immensely to behave like i didn't care, but staying with him would've been far more hurtful. My parents had realized that something was amiss when few days later, my mother rushed into my room with the most upsetting news- "You must go back to Rihaan; he's terribly ill!" I sprang out of the bed in preparation to leave and asked my mom if she had any other news of him. She shook her head worriedly-" Why aren't you in touch with him? He is your husband!" I chose to ignore that question and hurriedly packed whatever medicines that i thought he might need. I set off without further ado and reached our home in no time. The door had been left open and I was shocked to see the state of the apartment. Things were strewn around- the dirty clothes, utensils, stains and scratches made me wince and shudder at the neglected state of affairs. I walked into the bedroom, and there he was, my husband; burning with a fever of 102. He turned around to see who it was, and there was a grin on his wan face to see me back. His eyes glowed- " I knew you'd come," he said simply. I kept quiet, and started attending to him. I managed to brew something for him, so that he could take his dose of antibiotic, and put him to sleep after his fever came down by a few notches. I couldn't sleep a wink, for fear the fever would return. He was up early the next morning, his hair ruffled and eyes still heavy from sleep. I helped him up against the cushions, and not wanting to engage in a conversation, tried moving away from him, when he clasped my hand and pulled me towards him in a hug."Don't leave me again. I want you here... With me. Always." This, i hadn't expected, and was immobile in his arms. It was only when I disengaged myself from him and looked at his face, that i realized that finally- he too had found his day of love. He didn't quite confess to me his love, but said with an air of self pity, that he hadn't had a proper meal ever since I had left  him high and dry. Looking at the state of the house and its master, I was not at all amazed to hear this. I smiled at him and demanded that he hug me again. He complied readily, and I melted in his arms, knowing for the first time the warmth of his love.

One would be amazed at how my imagination can stretch- yes! I actually made that up! 'Our Platinum day of Love'. But honestly, whatever the situation, whatever the story; love is precious! Much akin to the stainless glory of Platinum, marriage too is a glorious beginning to the many chapters of yours life. We begin to wrap ourselves around emotions that were strange and unwelcome to us at one time- we begin to understand love, an emotion which is forged in a bond of a lifetime. Untainted, unblemished, and untarnished by the tides of time- A love like Platinum.      

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Measuring 'Happiness'!!

Happiness; an unfound treasure,

A world of joy, and bitter sweet pleasure,

It is a heaven untouched

By men who know only how to ‘want’,

Their souls are chased by Satan,

Their hearts are full of scorn.

But do they really know what they desire?

Living in a world of sin,

Thieves and liars.

If happiness could be so easily bought,

Why are their lives still fraught,

With dark and dreary days?

When the demons of the mind,

Disappear out of sight,

Man will find his way through the haze.

Stumbling upon the truth,

He will curse himself for being blind,

He had looked in the wrong places,

Knocked at the wrong doors,

He had failed to see reason even in the light.

For the treasure he hunted,

Lies in the humblest of places,

In the mind untainted with greed,

Where Satan doesn't leave his traces.

A content smile,

A helping hand,

A partner for life,

A walk in the sand;

Mere memories,

That fill one’s life with meaning.  

Just count your blessings,

And spread the word of love,

Hear your soul wondrously singing!

For this is Happiness, this is Glory!

Riches, fortunes, a Kingdom of Wealth,

Are just wishful stories.

To be happy is to be unafraid,

To tread on the path of God,

With boundless faith,

To find peace in times of strife.

So calm your mind, and ask yourself,

Have you truly found happiness in this life?

Lets go ZOOOOMMM!! :)

I  don't know what its like to nonchalantly pack up ones bags, amidst several commitments, and just leave for the perfect destination. At 20, I haven't had my first road trip. There were several tempting opportunities that I could've pounced upon, but Mom's flat refusal would always leave me sulking and discouraged, and I would inevitably slink back into routine life. Frankly movies like Dil Chahta hai and Zindagi na milegi Dobara have done absolutely nothing for my chutzpah! Yet, I dare to dream, that one fine day, with my best buddy, I'm going to hit the road and have the time of my life!

So, This here's how its going to be- The PERFECT Road Trip..

Sumedha and I are seated comfortably in our newly rented Wagon R. Sumedha at the driver's seat, trying to appear as calm as ever, and I'm sitting right beside her, taut with tension.The pessimist that i am, I ask nervously, "You think we should've got some more people along? Not feeling right about this all of a sudden."
Sumedha speaks through gritted teeth, "You are not chickening out on this one! How unsafe can a Bombay to Goa road trip be?"
" You're nervous too!" I counter her.
"That's because our parents think we're going to Goa together to WORK on a project with a TEAM. Remember! You made it up?" But Sumedha is not going to let her conscience come in the way of having fun this time! And nor am I, despite the nagging inhibitions. History is not going to repeat itself. Yes.. Two gutsy girls have finally decided to kick some ass! No more questions are asked, as I turn up the music in the car and we start rolling on to DESTINATION GOA!

This trip is not at all like the spontaneous stuff you see in movies. EVERYTHING is planned to its last detail. Sumedha was in charge of tracking the best routes for the trip. She has the massive task of driving the car for not less than 8 hrs, and she has to be extremely confident about the routes, because there is no way a topographically lost girl like me, can be of much use where geography is concerned. I, on the other hand, was busy making inquiries about the sight seeing part of the trip, and most importantly, the BEACHES!!   After a week of meticulous planning, and stocking necessary items for our little excursion, we were ready to set out.

I'm not so much in favor of 'The more the merrier' concept. There is more adventure and thrill attached to traveling with that one best pal, who fills your life with cheer and jamboree! And Sumedha is one such friend.

We can slowly feel the excitement building up, as we bid goodbye to the familiar sights of Bombay, and hit NH17;The fastest route to reach Goa. Thanks to Sumedha's adeptness at picking up on new routes, our drive is smooth and scenic. No sooner we are driving along the Western Ghats. The ghats are picturesque and have left me spellbound. I don't pay any attention to the map that's open in front of me, leaving poor Sumedha to her own devices. It is the perfect place to take a short break. I urge Sumedha to park the car at the nearest convenient place.

Once we get off the car, we can truly admire the spectacular sight of the sun rising out of the ghats. What makes it special is that its just the two of us, in such a vast space of nothingness, to witness the morning sun in all its glory. Not a soul is around, and we both sit together on a big rock, enjoying this quiet, yet disturbingly beautiful landscape. I smile as I see the glow of sheer contentment on Sumedha's face...Yes! We finally made it till here!

Our trip has a lot of stoppages, since both Sumedha and I are suckers for photography, and we just need the slightest excuse to flick out our cameras. We stop by villages and small hutments, where we click lots of photos with the locals and try know more about a world that is so very uncomplicated and simple.

Once we pass Chiplun in Ratnagiri, we are famished and spot a clean looking teal stall, where we feast on tea and snacks. After a very unhealthy, late lunch, we hit the road again. This time all charged to reach Goa before evening sets in.

A perfect road trip cannot be perfect without a glitch or two. Two hours away from Goa, Sumedha gives me a heart attack as she confesses to me that she has lost her bearings. We've arrived at a place which is slightly forested and the road ahead is definitely not the one we should be on. The map has no markings for this place, and there is no one around to ask directions from. To make things worse, one of the tires of the car is punctured, and even though there is a spare tire in the booty, neither of has the expertise of replacing old tires for new ones. We both are panic stricken, and are on the verge of hopelessness, when I suddenly realize that I know someone who can help. I call my emergency contact at once, and he reassures me that he will arrange for a taxi to pick us up from where we are stranded. 

We wait two for hours in that secluded location, our hearts in our mouth, for the taxi to arrive. When it finally makes an appearance, we jump into it, now anxious as ever to reach Goa with an urgency like never before. We are relieved that we are on the last leg of the road trip. Our limbs feel tired after our adventures, and all I need is a big bed to sleep it off. Once we have reached Goa, we've forgotten our trials, and we look forward to making our trip an unforgettable experience.

Someone suggested that we ought to take a train to Goa from Bombay, as that may prove to be a lot more economical and faster. Be that as it may, train travel does not have the same magical effect of a road trip. A road trip is also a self discovery trip; a great learning experience, which connects you physically to a world you may not have even known to exist. Everyone should be given a chance to live life large, and I can't think of a better plan than cutting loose from everyday life and running away to a beautiful place. What you'll discover on the way, will surely change you're life forever! That's a promise!



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Its not really difficult to describe..'ME'.

A word that defines you,

It makes you and it breaks you,

Your sole friend,

Your sole enemy,

Its the word 'ME'.

A Blind fool,

To always want things your way,

You cause your loved ones hurt,

And later shroud yourself in dismay.

You know this word makes you selfish and lowly,

It strips you of your conscience,

And eats your humility slowly.

 Yet, without "me" you are nothing,

A body without spirit,

A light without fire,

There is nothing more you need,

Nothing more you desire.

'me is your identity,

'me' is your being,

'me is your present,

An intangible force,

That keeps you alive and breathing.

But one day you will realise,

That 'me' is too less to suffice,

A lifetime of pain and suffering.

Mankind's ultimate truth,

A reality seldom understood,

'Me' can never be as important as 'YOU'.